Struggling Emotionally with Everything Going On

Lately I have been struggling. And given everything thats been going on, its understandable. I am not complaining, but I am still struggling emotionally. I am trying to play my part to flatten the curve, but I also have depression and its not exactly getting better. Everything that I was looking forward to this year, […]

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Weekly Recap: Lots of Big Things Happened

This week was an interesting one. I was sick throughout the week. It was most likely a sinus infection because my face hurt and I was stuffy, and I had a toothache. No I don’t have a cavity because I just saw my dentist 2 months ago and the pain went from one side of […]

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January 2020 Memories

I cannot be the only one who feels like January went by in the blink of an eye. I swear the year just started. But I guess, we’re onto the next month now. Here are a few of the things I remembered happening during January. I traveled back to Canada, like I have mentioned lots […]

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Do I look Chinese to You?

I’m going to be telling a story of something that happened while I was travelling back to Canada a few weeks ago. Something that I never really talked about in my post from that night. And before I even tell the story, I want to put a disclaimer that I am NOT trying to be […]

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Starting to Regret My Decision

Throughout the day, the only things I kept on thinking were “Why did I come back?” and “I regret coming back“. Just to catch up from my last post, I arrived back in Canada on Wednesday night and before that, I was in the Caribbean. So I basically left the warm tropical weather of 30C […]

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Everything is Not Fine

I’ve been debating whether or not I wanted to speak about this, but seeing that I have been crying the past hour-ish, I have my answer. If you read my last post, you would know that I was travelling back to Canada. I arrived safely, but everything is not fine. I like being on planes […]

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Leaving is the Hardest Part

Today my grandmother told me that every time I tell the doggie I’m leaving (because I am the type of person who speaks to her dog), it makes her sad. And honestly, I didn’t have a response to that. Because leaving is always the hardest part. Just to make it less confusing, I came to […]

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Anxiety Attack at the Airport

I am happy to say that I made it to Canada safely and that my flight was good. Unfortunately, I had an anxiety attack at the airport, in a public space and it did not go away very easily/at all. Anxiety may not be able to kill you, but it can definitely fuck with you. […]

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Saying Goodbye

Its such a bitter sweet feeling saying goodbye. In some ways I am excited to get back to Canada, and whatever that awaits, which I hope is good. But the other part of me is fucking terrified and sad to leave because this is my home. I am leaving behind my family and C and […]

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Last Day Home

5 mailboxes

Its actually really sad admitting that its my last day home, since the day went by so quickly. Will admit that it was partly because I woke up at 12pm, which I do not recommend, but I was exhausted and needed the rest so that’s okay. It was a good day, so I am happy […]

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