Everything Happens for a Reason

If there is anything I have learned, its that everything happens for reason. I know it is such a cliche statement but its true. No matter how devastating something might seem at the moment, with time you start to realize that maybe it was meant to be and you would not be where you are […]

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Christmas is almost 3 months away

So I just looked at the calendar only to realize that Christmas is almost 3 months away. And I started to become sad. Christmas has always been my favourite holiday and time of year. It just feels so magical. It makes me happy seeing the decorations and christmas trees, even that first snowfall. I love […]

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Am I Okay?

Earlier today my mom asked me if I was okay? I was actually surprised by her question because either I have become terrible at hiding my feelings or she noticed I wasn’t being myself. So am I okay? Honestly, I do not know how to answer that. Something is off with me for sure, but […]

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Panic Attacks Suck!!!

Someone crouched down crying

So I just watched the latest episode of Below Deck Med and seeing one of the cast have a panic attack broke my heart. Whether or not you are a big fan of the show, know that I am not going to spoil anything. A lot of people experience anxiety, some worse than others. And […]

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July 2020 Memories

Its just one of those days where I am fighting with my ipad. For some reason it shows all my files on icloud have disappeared while its still there on my phone and laptop. So not sure whats going on with it. But its also the end of July which means my monthly recap. This […]

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Let’s Talk About Suicide

I don’t know when this is going up. I don’t know if this ever will be posted. And if you are seeing this, know that I wrote this on 23rd July 2020 at 10:00PM. I wasn’t ready to talk about this. Honestly I don’t know if I ever will be ready to talk about this. […]

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Accepted Being Depressed

This past week I have been struggling with my depression. All I do is stay in bed. I barely answer my messages. Have not been on my blog. My room is trash. I haven’t been applying to jobs. I just don’t give a fuck anymore. I’m not saying this for you to feel sorry for […]

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May 2020 Memories

Another month has gone by and I honestly don’t know if that is a good thing or bad thing. Yeah we’re almost halfway through the year, but its also been a shitty year with quite a lot of things happening. Sooooo. Nothing exciting happened during the month. Pretty much stayed home, slept, read, watched a […]

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I have a Right to be Sad

Its been about a month since I last cried. Until tonight when I reflected about how I’ve been feeling in my journal. Lately, I’ve become distant and pretending that everything’s okay when its not. I’ve been sleeping my days away, watching The Good Doctor , reading and staring at the wall. The Good Doctor is […]

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Reminding Myself that its Okay

I really try to be grateful and not complain but I need to. All today I have been saying confidently that I am not submitting my assignment tonight. That I am going to submit it later. But the thing is, its not that I am proud of that. Its that I am trying to convince […]

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