I’m Struggling…

Tonight, as I started writing in my journal, I only got through one sentence before starting to cry. All it said was Its been 5 months since Brian died. After that, I couldn’t continue with my thoughts. I planned to talked about my day. Just babble about useless things, not how I actually feel. And […]

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Where Have I Been?

If you go back to my last blog post, you would see that it was posted on September 18th 2019. That was over 3 weeks ago. Thing is, I am full time student with 5 courses who commutes, takes part in  extra-curricular activities and  volunteer at an organisation. Oh and there’s the applying for new […]

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I Survived a Networking Event

In my last post, I briefly mentioned being scared to go to networking events. Well today, I can officially say that I survived attending a hiring/networking event. Woohoo This event was put on by a huge insurance firm in Canada and targeted towards actuarial students. If you did not know, I am an economics student, […]

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I Am NOT Okay

Before I got back to Canada, I expected to go back to my normal routine; the hustle and bustle, trying to be productive and maybe try to be a bit social. I’ve been here for 2 weeks so far, and that has not happened. I’ve spent money mostly on Starbucks and commuting, but other than […]

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Back to School

At the time you are reading this, I will be sitting in a lecture hall waiting for my International Trade course to begin. Fun right? I expect the prof to be setting up, students to be walking in and me sitting there all alone. Because I’m the loner who no one speaks to and is […]

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August Memories

Am I the only one who feels like August went by quickly? Jeez. In a few days I am about to start my 4th year of university and I am NOT ready. I still feel like I am on vacation mode. Though I am kind of looking forward to summer ending. Fall is my favourite. […]

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Travel + Anxiety

Someone crouched down crying

I had this intention to write about how good my day was since I spent it with my grandfather. But instead I’m crying and filled with anxiety at 11PM on a Monday night. So I’m going to talk about that instead. If you have anxiety, you understand how it affects you and what triggers it. […]

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Its Okay to Cry

A girl crying with her hands on her eyes.

An hour ago, as I laid down writing in my journal, I started crying. And it made me realize that its completely okay to cry. No one should judge you because you feel sad or make you feel old. Thing is, we are all humans. Its part of us to cry. It happens. The same […]

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Rejection After Rejection

When you’re in college or university you usually try to get an internship every year, to gain some experience and gain some money. Now the year before you graduate, the summer between your 3rd and 4th year, is really important since you’re hoping to get a job with that company. Now this is the thing. […]

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They Didn’t Want Me

In the span of a week, I got an interview, did that interview, got the job and found out two days later that it was all a mistake and I was not supposed to get the job in the first place. I’m guessing you’re thinking some combination of “what the fuck”, “I’m sorry”, “oh my […]

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