Two years ago around this time, my maternal grandmother got sick and unfortunately passed away. August will be 2 years. It was the most heartbreaking thing to have happened to me. A few months ago, my paternal grandmother got sick and has been in and out of the icu ever since. She is slowly dying. […]
Read MoreI feel like more than ever no one understand what I am going through and how I may be feeling the way that I am. They dont understand what its like to be broken. To lose your person. To trust. To leave the house. To make a simple phone call. And even though you may […]
Read MoreThis month feels like the month from hell. So much has happened – more bad than good. So, I am going to keep this short. Life My grandmother died almost a week ago. This was my breaking point and too be honest, I don’t know if and how I will recover. I’ve lost a lot […]
Read MoreTwo months ago, my grandmother got sick. And it worse very fast. On Wednesday night she died. Its been hard and still doesn’t feel real. I am not ready to talk about it yet, but I shared my journal entry for that which tries to explain what I cant.
Read MoreTomorrow marks 2 years since my uncle died. Two years later, I’m still sad. I still miss him. And this time of year is just really hard for me because all those feelings come back. Even though its been 2 years, these feelings have not gone away. Some times I feel like my family has […]
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For an entire week, I prayed and hoped and wished, every single day that he would survive. Every single time that I received a message or a call, I was afraid for it to be those words. The confirmation that I didn’t want. I was about to fall asleep when my phone rang. It was […]
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My uncle would have turned 42 years today. But he’s dead and wasn’t able to experience it [not that there is anything he is missing] I’m going to be honest, its been a rough day for me. Its almost 10 months since he died and it still hurts. I still miss him. And till you […]
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Growing up, one of the tv shows I was obsessed with was Hannah Montana. I loved the tv show, the songs, Miley Cyrus. And it makes sense. I’m a Gen Z girl who had the good Disney and Nick shows, not what plays now. A while ago I was scrolling through Instagram, and I came […]
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Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays to everyone. Enjoy the time with family and friends, the excuse to eat as bad as you want, the gifts you got and all the traditions that have been in your family And if you don’t celebrate it, well hope you have a good Wednesday. I know that its been […]
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Tonight, as I started writing in my journal, I only got through one sentence before starting to cry. All it said was Its been 5 months since Brian died. After that, I couldn’t continue with my thoughts. I planned to talked about my day. Just babble about useless things, not how I actually feel. And […]
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Arristella 