I’m Struggling…

Tonight, as I started writing in my journal, I only got through one sentence before starting to cry. All it said was Its been 5 months since Brian died. After that, I couldn’t continue with my thoughts. I planned to talked about my day. Just babble about useless things, not how I actually feel. And […]

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August TV Favourites

A scene is about to be filmed

Still can’t understand how August went by so quickly. I felt like I did nothing productive except binge watch some tv shows. At least that did not disappoint me. Vampire Diaries (2009) – Season 7 Summary: Vampires and all things supernatural lie in a in a town called Mystic Falls. I finished watching this series […]

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Three Score and Ten

I remember growing up and hearing that if you were to live till 70 years old, you’re lucky. It was called three score and ten, which added up to 70. I believe it’s a Christian thing since it came from the Bible, but I’m not a pro at that so don’t quote me. And in […]

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Calling Canada Home

A key in an opened door

When I moved to Canada three years ago, little did I know that it would have become my second home. I was born and raised in St. Lucia, living there for 19 years. That is what I called home for all those years and I never once thought that another place would have been able […]

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Anxiety Attack at the Airport

I am happy to say that I made it to Canada safely and that my flight was good. Unfortunately, I had an anxiety attack at the airport, in a public space and it did not go away very easily/at all. Anxiety may not be able to kill you, but it can definitely fuck with you. […]

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Saying Goodbye

Its such a bitter sweet feeling saying goodbye. In some ways I am excited to get back to Canada, and whatever that awaits, which I hope is good. But the other part of me is fucking terrified and sad to leave because this is my home. I am leaving behind my family and C and […]

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Last Day Home

5 mailboxes

Its actually really sad admitting that its my last day home, since the day went by so quickly. Will admit that it was partly because I woke up at 12pm, which I do not recommend, but I was exhausted and needed the rest so that’s okay. It was a good day, so I am happy […]

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Caribbean Night Time Routine

Night time with some trees

I thought it would be an interesting idea to do a Caribbean Night Time routine before I left. The way I spend my nights here are completely different to what I do when I am in Canada. But I also want to remember it. So here goes. 6PM-7 PM This is when I start closing […]

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11th August 2019

A girl trying to sleep

Today’s been a rough one for me. I barely slept last night and I had no coffee today, which is not a fun combination. And even when I tried to take a nap, that didn’t work, because naps seem to hate me. So I got to spend it yawning over and over and over again. […]

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The Last Two Weeks

Holding a drink in a backyard

[August 8th 2019] I’m writing this, sitting in my balcony with Chocolate next to me. Right now all that is going through my head, is how much I am going to miss this place when I leave. I only have two more weeks left before I have to go back to Canada. And if I […]

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