I have a Right to be Sad

Its been about a month since I last cried. Until tonight when I reflected about how I’ve been feeling in my journal. Lately, I’ve become distant and pretending that everything’s okay when its not. I’ve been sleeping my days away, watching The Good Doctor , reading and staring at the wall. The Good Doctor is […]

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Reminding Myself that its Okay

I really try to be grateful and not complain but I need to. All today I have been saying confidently that I am not submitting my assignment tonight. That I am going to submit it later. But the thing is, its not that I am proud of that. Its that I am trying to convince […]

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Trying to do Finals with Depression

I’ve been very open about struggling emotionally and with my depression around what’s going on. And its come to the point where my depression is so bad that it is going to affect how I complete, not only the school year but my undergrad. And it hurts thinking about that. I know that other people […]

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March 2020 Memories

Today was the first time in over a week that I went outside. And it was only to go pick up pizza that we ordered for dinner. Also, it was the first time in a few days, that in real clothes and not pyjamas because thats what my life is lately. Sleeping too much, doing […]

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Struggling Emotionally with Everything Going On

Lately I have been struggling. And given everything thats been going on, its understandable. I am not complaining, but I am still struggling emotionally. I am trying to play my part to flatten the curve, but I also have depression and its not exactly getting better. Everything that I was looking forward to this year, […]

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Weekly Recap: All Over the Place

With everything going on, I have been bummed out the past few days and I have a feeling that I am slowly becoming depressed. You might think I am overreacting, but I know myself. I know the signs to look for in depression. Last week started good and then it ended up on a shitty […]

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I Feel Like a Failure

Today felt like shit. Its just one of those days where I feel overwhelmed, stressed, and disappointed in myself. I’m scared to talk about it with others because their response is always me overreacting. But if I am not careful, this could easily lead to depression. A lot of it has to do with me […]

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Weekly Recap: Time to Get My Sh*t Together

So I have been back in Canada for like 3 days, and I think its officially time for me to start getting my shit together. If you’re a bit lost, I spent a few weeks in the Caribbean, came back on Wednesday night and went back to school on Thursday. I know, it was a […]

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2019 Recap…

Since its the last day of 2019, I thought it was a good idea to recap the year. Last year on New Years Eve, I did that in my journal and I enjoyed having to reflect on the past year – the good, the bad, the okay and the funny. I still plan on doing […]

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I Am NOT Okay

Before I got back to Canada, I expected to go back to my normal routine; the hustle and bustle, trying to be productive and maybe try to be a bit social. I’ve been here for 2 weeks so far, and that has not happened. I’ve spent money mostly on Starbucks and commuting, but other than […]

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