Let’s Chat: Sometimes Words Kind of Hurt

I love that this blog gives me a space to rant and be vulnerable. I know that I posted one yesterday and that I haven’t gotten back to the comments, so if you’re reading this, know that I read them all and appreciated it. I will answer when I’m in a better headspace. Lately my […]

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Let’s Chat: I don’t have the energy.

As the days go by, I realize that what made me happy, no longer does. I prefer to sleep my day away and find a distraction when I am awake – that could be reading, playing animal crossing, watching youtube. I don’t really feel for food. I have kind of stopped speaking to people unless […]

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Let’s Chat: Job search, grad school, travel, family

I want to open up about some things right now because I am sad and feel alone. It might be held against me. It might be complaining or overreacting. Honestly, I don’t care because its life, I have no one to talk to and its 2020. I can’t get into my National Student Loan Service […]

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July 2020 Memories

Its just one of those days where I am fighting with my ipad. For some reason it shows all my files on icloud have disappeared while its still there on my phone and laptop. So not sure whats going on with it. But its also the end of July which means my monthly recap. This […]

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Let’s Talk About Suicide

I don’t know when this is going up. I don’t know if this ever will be posted. And if you are seeing this, know that I wrote this on 23rd July 2020 at 10:00PM. I wasn’t ready to talk about this. Honestly I don’t know if I ever will be ready to talk about this. […]

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Accepted Being Depressed

This past week I have been struggling with my depression. All I do is stay in bed. I barely answer my messages. Have not been on my blog. My room is trash. I haven’t been applying to jobs. I just don’t give a fuck anymore. I’m not saying this for you to feel sorry for […]

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I have a Right to be Sad

Its been about a month since I last cried. Until tonight when I reflected about how I’ve been feeling in my journal. Lately, I’ve become distant and pretending that everything’s okay when its not. I’ve been sleeping my days away, watching The Good Doctor , reading and staring at the wall. The Good Doctor is […]

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Reminding Myself that its Okay

I really try to be grateful and not complain but I need to. All today I have been saying confidently that I am not submitting my assignment tonight. That I am going to submit it later. But the thing is, its not that I am proud of that. Its that I am trying to convince […]

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Trying to do Finals with Depression

I’ve been very open about struggling emotionally and with my depression around what’s going on. And its come to the point where my depression is so bad that it is going to affect how I complete, not only the school year but my undergrad. And it hurts thinking about that. I know that other people […]

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March 2020 Memories

Today was the first time in over a week that I went outside. And it was only to go pick up pizza that we ordered for dinner. Also, it was the first time in a few days, that in real clothes and not pyjamas because thats what my life is lately. Sleeping too much, doing […]

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