I feel like more than ever no one understand what I am going through and how I may be feeling the way that I am. They dont understand what its like to be broken. To lose your person. To trust. To leave the house. To make a simple phone call. And even though you may […]
Read MoreI have tried to start this post several different ways now and none of them sounded right. The short version of what I was trying to say is that it has been a while since I have come on here – to write, to read, to interact. And to be honest, I don’t know if […]
Read MoreThis month, I barely touched my blog. And its not because I was busy. Instead, my depression was really bad. The past few weeks, I have been in the biggest slump and my motivation to do anything just isn’t there. So barely blogged, which isn’t like me. Honestly, if it wasn’t for things I had […]
Read MoreI love that this blog gives me a space to rant and be vulnerable. I know that I posted one yesterday and that I haven’t gotten back to the comments, so if you’re reading this, know that I read them all and appreciated it. I will answer when I’m in a better headspace. Lately my […]
Read MoreAs the days go by, I realize that what made me happy, no longer does. I prefer to sleep my day away and find a distraction when I am awake – that could be reading, playing animal crossing, watching youtube. I don’t really feel for food. I have kind of stopped speaking to people unless […]
Read MoreI want to open up about some things right now because I am sad and feel alone. It might be held against me. It might be complaining or overreacting. Honestly, I don’t care because its life, I have no one to talk to and its 2020. I can’t get into my National Student Loan Service […]
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Its just one of those days where I am fighting with my ipad. For some reason it shows all my files on icloud have disappeared while its still there on my phone and laptop. So not sure whats going on with it. But its also the end of July which means my monthly recap. This […]
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I don’t know when this is going up. I don’t know if this ever will be posted. And if you are seeing this, know that I wrote this on 23rd July 2020 at 10:00PM. I wasn’t ready to talk about this. Honestly I don’t know if I ever will be ready to talk about this. […]
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This past week I have been struggling with my depression. All I do is stay in bed. I barely answer my messages. Have not been on my blog. My room is trash. I haven’t been applying to jobs. I just don’t give a fuck anymore. I’m not saying this for you to feel sorry for […]
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Its been about a month since I last cried. Until tonight when I reflected about how I’ve been feeling in my journal. Lately, I’ve become distant and pretending that everything’s okay when its not. I’ve been sleeping my days away, watching The Good Doctor , reading and staring at the wall. The Good Doctor is […]
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Arristella 