Panic Attacks Suck!!!

Someone crouched down crying

So I just watched the latest episode of Below Deck Med and seeing one of the cast have a panic attack broke my heart. Whether or not you are a big fan of the show, know that I am not going to spoil anything. A lot of people experience anxiety, some worse than others. And […]

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Moving to Canada: Now and Then

People at an airport waiting

This is my 100th post. Wooohoooooo. Perfect timing. Today (June 28th 2015) marks 5 years since I moved to Canada. And its so interesting to look back to see how much life has changed and how much I have changed in those 5 years. Unlike other people, I had it easy. Since my mom was […]

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I’m Anxious Over Taking Photos and I Hate Myself

I’m taking my graduation photos this afternoon. Its 10:30 right now and I am ball of anxiety. And its such a weird feeling for me because I haven’t felt that in a while. Some part of me hates myself that I can’t do something normal and something that I have been looking forward to. The […]

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My Little Piece of the Internet

I try to explain to others whats going on but they don’t understand. Not only can they not relate to whats going on and how I feel, they leave. Imagine having the gut to tell someone your story, the pain and emotions that come with it. They pretend to understand. Maybe they do. But then […]

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I have a Right to be Sad

Its been about a month since I last cried. Until tonight when I reflected about how I’ve been feeling in my journal. Lately, I’ve become distant and pretending that everything’s okay when its not. I’ve been sleeping my days away, watching The Good Doctor , reading and staring at the wall. The Good Doctor is […]

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Stepping Out of My Comfort Zone

Today (Wednesday 4th March 2020), I participated in my university’s undergraduate research fair. And that is a big thing for me because I stepped out of my comfort zone to do so. I do not like talking. And I do not like people. But somehow, I ended up presenting a project to a bunch of […]

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February 2020 Memories

Another month has come and gone and now we are in March. I can’t believe I only have one full month left of university till I graduate. I swear I was in my first year just the other day. Anyway lets talk about February. It was an interesting and busy month. It felt like I […]

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Weekly Recap: A Busy 2 Weeks

A lot of things has happened over the last two weeks and the perfect time to talk about it all is on 29th of February. The one day that happens ever four years. Last week was supposed to be my break from school and unfortunately it ended up not being a break. Unlike other people, […]

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Medication, Shitty People and Doctor Visits

I’ve had a bit of a shitty day and I want to talk about it. So if you don’t want to read a ramble don’t. I been taking sertraline/Zoloft for my anxiety for about a year now. March will officially mark the one year anniversary. I usually get a refill about every 3 months. I […]

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Anxiety Fucking Sucks – An Update

On Sunday, I posted a very rambly post. I was in a bad mental state, my anxiety made me sick, I felt like trash. If you want to read it, I will leave it here, but more importantly, I wanted to give an update. First off, the likes and comments on that post meant a […]

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