Opening up: Job search, grad school, travel, family

I want to open up about some things right now because I am sad and feel alone. It might be held against me. It might be complaining or overreacting. Honestly, I don’t care because its life, I have no one to talk to and its 2020. I can’t get into my National Student Loan Service […]

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It has been an interesting night

The past half hour has been an interesting one. I’m just laying on my bed, reading and I suddenly hear a knock. Sounds common right? Except that its after 7pm, I did not expect anyone, its dark and I am the only one in the house. But I decided to answer it anyway. He said […]

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The Reason I am Afraid of Police

Sometimes the stories that are the hardest to tell are the ones that we need to share. These stories can shape our lives and our minds, and the only way to move on is to talk about it. When I shared that story for that the time last year on my instagram it felt like […]

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On My Mind

A few days ago I made a post talking about how I was stressed and overwhelmed with the things going on in my life. Almost a week later, mostly everything has worked out. And hopefully by tomorrow it will done and gone. A lot of those feelings came from a research paper that I did […]

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Stressed, Anxious & Overwhelmed

I feel like I am in way over my head right now, that all I want to do is just cry myself to sleep. But instead of doing that I am going to eat my feelings away in lemon strudels and talk about what is going on. Because I am stressed, anxious, overwhelmed and hate […]

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messing with my anxiety

For the past 20 mins, I have been sitting near my phone waiting for a call that doesn’t seem to come. See on Friday, I got an email from an HR person at a company asking if I would be available for a short interview from 3pm-4pm. Obviously I said yes because a girl is […]

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Panic Attacks Suck!!!

Someone crouched down crying

So I just watched the latest episode of Below Deck Med and seeing one of the cast have a panic attack broke my heart. Whether or not you are a big fan of the show, know that I am not going to spoil anything. A lot of people experience anxiety, some worse than others. And […]

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Moving to Canada: Now and Then

People at an airport waiting

This is my 100th post. Wooohoooooo. Perfect timing. Today (June 28th 2015) marks 5 years since I moved to Canada. And its so interesting to look back to see how much life has changed and how much I have changed in those 5 years. Unlike other people, I had it easy. Since my mom was […]

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I’m Anxious Over Taking Photos and I Hate Myself

I’m taking my graduation photos this afternoon. Its 10:30 right now and I am ball of anxiety. And its such a weird feeling for me because I haven’t felt that in a while. Some part of me hates myself that I can’t do something normal and something that I have been looking forward to. The […]

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My Little Piece of the Internet

I try to explain to others whats going on but they don’t understand. Not only can they not relate to whats going on and how I feel, they leave. Imagine having the gut to tell someone your story, the pain and emotions that come with it. They pretend to understand. Maybe they do. But then […]

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