Opening up: Job search, grad school, travel, family

I want to open up about some things right now because I am sad and feel alone. It might be held against me. It might be complaining or overreacting. Honestly, I don’t care because its life, I have no one to talk to and its 2020. I can’t get into my National Student Loan Service […]

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Sharing My Graduation Photos

I have a few too many posts about my graduation photos before [ here and there, having curly hair, the anxiety ]. And today I finally got them. I shared them on my social media and thought it was only best to share them here as well. Fun fact 1: My grandmother has been waiting […]

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Trying to do Finals with Depression

I’ve been very open about struggling emotionally and with my depression around what’s going on. And its come to the point where my depression is so bad that it is going to affect how I complete, not only the school year but my undergrad. And it hurts thinking about that. I know that other people […]

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Weekly Recap: All Over the Place

With everything going on, I have been bummed out the past few days and I have a feeling that I am slowly becoming depressed. You might think I am overreacting, but I know myself. I know the signs to look for in depression. Last week started good and then it ended up on a shitty […]

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Feeling Like A Failure and Disappointment

Last month I applied to this undergraduate research conference and last week I got an email saying that my project was accepted. I was happy but at the back of my mind I thought I couldn’t go Now I am struggling to decide whether or not I want to go. I’m the type of person […]

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Last Month of University Starts Now

My last month of university starts from today, 9th March 2020. I still have exams in April, but last month of university in terms of classes to go back. Only 4 weeks of class left before I am done. And for me thats a big thing because for the first time in my life, when […]

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Stepping Out of My Comfort Zone

Today (Wednesday 4th March 2020), I participated in my university’s undergraduate research fair. And that is a big thing for me because I stepped out of my comfort zone to do so. I do not like talking. And I do not like people. But somehow, I ended up presenting a project to a bunch of […]

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Anxiety Fucking Sucks

So I am in bed on a Saturday night feeling like trash. Nope I’m not sick. Anxiety just fucking sucks. And this post is going to be all over the place Currently my face hurts because my acne is bad. I want to stress eat, but I can’t because I feel nauseas and want throw […]

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Me + Writing = Send Help!!!

If you are one of those people that are good at writing for academic purposes, I envy you. I really really do. Can you please send some tips for those of us who suck? If not send me positive vibes because its needed. I have no shame in admitting that I am not the best […]

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Weekly Recap: Books and Coffee

I feel strangely calm right now even though this week started out rough. Honestly I think its just because my essay which was due tonight is extended till Monday. So I am just doing like every student does, look for every single way to procrastinate and then hate my life on Monday when its due. […]

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