Let’s Chat: Grad School Applications are submitted

January 19, 2021.Reading time 2 minutes.

I can finally say I am done with those grad school applications. Thank god. I only applied to 3 schools/programs and even though it might not seem like a lot, it wasn’t fun. Its costly, detailed and the information asked is similar but different. And there were times where I was frustrated and wanted to […]

Mental Health is a Strange Thing

January 18, 2021.Reading time 3 minutes.

Some days I wake up to scratches and cuts on me, wondering where they came from because I don’t remember hurting myself, walking into something and I don’t have a pet. However, the other day I burned a finger in the oven while trying to take out a piece of bread that we put to […]

Stressed, Anxious & Overwhelmed

September 2, 2020.Reading time 6 minutes.

I feel like I am in way over my head right now, that all I want to do is just cry myself to sleep. But instead of doing that I am going to eat my feelings away in lemon strudels and talk about what is going on. Because I am stressed, anxious, overwhelmed and hate […]

messing with my anxiety

August 11, 2020.Reading time 2 minutes.

For the past 20 mins, I have been sitting near my phone waiting for a call that doesn’t seem to come. See on Friday, I got an email from an HR person at a company asking if I would be available for a short interview from 3pm-4pm. Obviously I said yes because a girl is […]

Panic Attacks Suck!!!

August 4, 2020.Reading time 3 minutes.

So I just watched the latest episode of Below Deck Med and seeing one of the cast have a panic attack broke my heart. Whether or not you are a big fan of the show, know that I am not going to spoil anything. A lot of people experience anxiety, some worse than others. And […]

Have you ever wanted something so much, that you are scared to think about it?

July 12, 2020.Reading time 2 minutes.

Have you ever wanted something so much, that you are scared to think about it? That’s how I feel right now. Tomorrow afternoon, I have an interview for a position that I applied for. And even though its only for 2 months, I really want to get it. But I am scared of wanting it. […]

I’m Anxious Over Taking Photos and I Hate Myself

June 6, 2020.Reading time 2 minutes.

I’m taking my graduation photos this afternoon. Its 10:30 right now and I am ball of anxiety. And its such a weird feeling for me because I haven’t felt that in a while. Some part of me hates myself that I can’t do something normal and something that I have been looking forward to. The […]

Weekly Recap: All Over the Place

March 16, 2020.Reading time 4 minutes.

With everything going on, I have been bummed out the past few days and I have a feeling that I am slowly becoming depressed. You might think I am overreacting, but I know myself. I know the signs to look for in depression. Last week started good and then it ended up on a shitty […]

Medication, Shitty People and Doctor Visits

February 28, 2020.Reading time 9 minutes.

I’ve had a bit of a shitty day and I want to talk about it. So if you don’t want to read a ramble don’t. I been taking sertraline/Zoloft for my anxiety for about a year now. March will officially mark the one year anniversary. I usually get a refill about every 3 months. I […]

Anxiety Fucking Sucks – An Update

February 25, 2020.Reading time 6 minutes.

On Sunday, I posted a very rambly post. I was in a bad mental state, my anxiety made me sick, I felt like trash. If you want to read it, I will leave it here, but more importantly, I wanted to give an update. First off, the likes and comments on that post meant a […]