Panic Attacks Suck!!!

Someone crouched down crying

So I just watched the latest episode of Below Deck Med and seeing one of the cast have a panic attack broke my heart. Whether or not you are a big fan of the show, know that I am not going to spoil anything. A lot of people experience anxiety, some worse than others. And […]

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Let’s Talk About Suicide

I don’t know when this is going up. I don’t know if this ever will be posted. And if you are seeing this, know that I wrote this on 23rd July 2020 at 10:00PM. I wasn’t ready to talk about this. Honestly I don’t know if I ever will be ready to talk about this. […]

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Accepted Being Depressed

This past week I have been struggling with my depression. All I do is stay in bed. I barely answer my messages. Have not been on my blog. My room is trash. I haven’t been applying to jobs. I just don’t give a fuck anymore. I’m not saying this for you to feel sorry for […]

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I have a Right to be Sad

Its been about a month since I last cried. Until tonight when I reflected about how I’ve been feeling in my journal. Lately, I’ve become distant and pretending that everything’s okay when its not. I’ve been sleeping my days away, watching The Good Doctor , reading and staring at the wall. The Good Doctor is […]

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Reminding Myself that its Okay

I really try to be grateful and not complain but I need to. All today I have been saying confidently that I am not submitting my assignment tonight. That I am going to submit it later. But the thing is, its not that I am proud of that. Its that I am trying to convince […]

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Trying to do Finals with Depression

I’ve been very open about struggling emotionally and with my depression around what’s going on. And its come to the point where my depression is so bad that it is going to affect how I complete, not only the school year but my undergrad. And it hurts thinking about that. I know that other people […]

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Struggling Emotionally with Everything Going On

Lately I have been struggling. And given everything thats been going on, its understandable. I am not complaining, but I am still struggling emotionally. I am trying to play my part to flatten the curve, but I also have depression and its not exactly getting better. Everything that I was looking forward to this year, […]

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#BellLetsTalk

For some people today is just another ordinary day. For some it means something. Not only is it my grandmother [who is like a mother’s birthday], its also #BellLetsTalk day. Its an initiative by Bell in Canada to raise awareness and to end the stigma towards mental health. Bell will donate more towards mental health […]

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I Feel Like a Failure

Today felt like shit. Its just one of those days where I feel overwhelmed, stressed, and disappointed in myself. I’m scared to talk about it with others because their response is always me overreacting. But if I am not careful, this could easily lead to depression. A lot of it has to do with me […]

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Weekly Recap: Time to Get My Sh*t Together

So I have been back in Canada for like 3 days, and I think its officially time for me to start getting my shit together. If you’re a bit lost, I spent a few weeks in the Caribbean, came back on Wednesday night and went back to school on Thursday. I know, it was a […]

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