Let’s Chat: I don’t have the energy.

As the days go by, I realize that what made me happy, no longer does. I prefer to sleep my day away and find a distraction when I am awake – that could be reading, playing animal crossing, watching youtube. I don’t really feel for food. I have kind of stopped speaking to people unless […]

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Let’s Chat: Job search, grad school, travel, family

I want to open up about some things right now because I am sad and feel alone. It might be held against me. It might be complaining or overreacting. Honestly, I don’t care because its life, I have no one to talk to and its 2020. I can’t get into my National Student Loan Service […]

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Everything Happens for a Reason

If there is anything I have learned, its that everything happens for reason. I know it is such a cliche statement but its true. No matter how devastating something might seem at the moment, with time you start to realize that maybe it was meant to be and you would not be where you are […]

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Stressed, Anxious & Overwhelmed

I feel like I am in way over my head right now, that all I want to do is just cry myself to sleep. But instead of doing that I am going to eat my feelings away in lemon strudels and talk about what is going on. Because I am stressed, anxious, overwhelmed and hate […]

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messing with my anxiety

For the past 20 mins, I have been sitting near my phone waiting for a call that doesn’t seem to come. See on Friday, I got an email from an HR person at a company asking if I would be available for a short interview from 3pm-4pm. Obviously I said yes because a girl is […]

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Panic Attacks Suck!!!

Someone crouched down crying

So I just watched the latest episode of Below Deck Med and seeing one of the cast have a panic attack broke my heart. Whether or not you are a big fan of the show, know that I am not going to spoil anything. A lot of people experience anxiety, some worse than others. And […]

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Let’s Talk About Suicide

I don’t know when this is going up. I don’t know if this ever will be posted. And if you are seeing this, know that I wrote this on 23rd July 2020 at 10:00PM. I wasn’t ready to talk about this. Honestly I don’t know if I ever will be ready to talk about this. […]

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Accepted Being Depressed

This past week I have been struggling with my depression. All I do is stay in bed. I barely answer my messages. Have not been on my blog. My room is trash. I haven’t been applying to jobs. I just don’t give a fuck anymore. I’m not saying this for you to feel sorry for […]

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I’m Anxious Over Taking Photos and I Hate Myself

I’m taking my graduation photos this afternoon. Its 10:30 right now and I am ball of anxiety. And its such a weird feeling for me because I haven’t felt that in a while. Some part of me hates myself that I can’t do something normal and something that I have been looking forward to. The […]

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