Its been about a month since I last cried. Until tonight when I reflected about how I’ve been feeling in my journal. Lately, I’ve become distant and pretending that everything’s okay when its not. I’ve been sleeping my days away, watching The Good Doctor , reading and staring at the wall. The Good Doctor is […]
Read MoreI really try to be grateful and not complain but I need to. All today I have been saying confidently that I am not submitting my assignment tonight. That I am going to submit it later. But the thing is, its not that I am proud of that. Its that I am trying to convince […]
Read More
I’ve been very open about struggling emotionally and with my depression around what’s going on. And its come to the point where my depression is so bad that it is going to affect how I complete, not only the school year but my undergrad. And it hurts thinking about that. I know that other people […]
Read More
Lately I have been struggling. And given everything thats been going on, its understandable. I am not complaining, but I am still struggling emotionally. I am trying to play my part to flatten the curve, but I also have depression and its not exactly getting better. Everything that I was looking forward to this year, […]
Read More
For some people today is just another ordinary day. For some it means something. Not only is it my grandmother [who is like a mother’s birthday], its also #BellLetsTalk day. Its an initiative by Bell in Canada to raise awareness and to end the stigma towards mental health. Bell will donate more towards mental health […]
Read More
Today felt like shit. Its just one of those days where I feel overwhelmed, stressed, and disappointed in myself. I’m scared to talk about it with others because their response is always me overreacting. But if I am not careful, this could easily lead to depression. A lot of it has to do with me […]
Read More
So I have been back in Canada for like 3 days, and I think its officially time for me to start getting my shit together. If you’re a bit lost, I spent a few weeks in the Caribbean, came back on Wednesday night and went back to school on Thursday. I know, it was a […]
Read More
Tonight, as I started writing in my journal, I only got through one sentence before starting to cry. All it said was Its been 5 months since Brian died. After that, I couldn’t continue with my thoughts. I planned to talked about my day. Just babble about useless things, not how I actually feel. And […]
Read More
In my last post, I briefly mentioned being scared to go to networking events. Well today, I can officially say that I survived attending a hiring/networking event. Woohoo This event was put on by a huge insurance firm in Canada and targeted towards actuarial students. If you did not know, I am an economics student, […]
Read More
Before I got back to Canada, I expected to go back to my normal routine; the hustle and bustle, trying to be productive and maybe try to be a bit social. I’ve been here for 2 weeks so far, and that has not happened. I’ve spent money mostly on Starbucks and commuting, but other than […]
Read More