December 2020 Memories

And we have reached the last month of the year. I can’t believe that I have written these recaps and been active on my blog for an entire year. I am proud of myself.

This month was ughhh. Usually Christmas i my favourite time and I was not feeling festive this year. I spent a lot of days been sad and depressed. I also had my mother and grandmother at me for things I could not control (being sad & depression). I tried to take my mind off things with watching movies, journaling and playing video games but when I am done, those feelings come back. I am trying my best not to complain but it exhausting pretending and trying to distract myself. Its a cycle of being sad, distractions and exhaustion. Can’t really do much.

I am still obsessed with my Nintendo switch. I have taken a break from Animal Crossing because I got a bit tired of it and didn’t like my island and got Luigi’s Mansion 3, which I have not started and Spyro Reignited Trilogy, which I have been playing the past 2 days. Here’s the thing, I am terrible at playing video games especially when it involves trying to defeat something. And I have realized that I refuse to give up and I get angry when I don’t land a jump in Spyro. I am at this level that I do not know if I can beat. I do not do well under pressure to fly while destroying shit.

I also did a lot of drawing this month. I set up my new grad journal with a “santa puppy” theme, then decided to do a one line a day journal for my grandmother as a christmas present, then the holiday cards for seniors and now I am working on my 2021 reading journal. I am normally an organized mess, but drawing and journaling brings out a nightmare. I have so many different options.

I spent a lot of time working on that journal for my grandmother and I don’t know if she appreciated it. I don’t want to assume the worst of people, but since she never said anything about it, it feels like she just dumped it on a side. Maybe even gave it to someone. The reality is there are some people who might prefer something more than a journal. I’ll include some photos of it, so you tell me. Do you think it was a good gift?

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I guess the good news is that I survived Christmas. Would I have preferred to spend it with my grandparents? Absolutely. But this year is shit so there’s not much I can do. Thankfully its just one day. Nothing much happened. I curled my hair, took a photo in the snow and drank an entire bottle of wine. Well technically, my mom had 2 glasses and I had the rest so I would say I drank 3/4 of a bottle of wine in an hour by myself. And no I did not get drunk. I did take a food coma nap though.

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I was also lucky to have a video call with my uncle, grandfather, doggie and new baby cousin. Wowwww. I just realized they were all boys. I was happy to see my doggie because its been so long since I was able to see him. And I got to see the new baby!

I tried baking a caribbean fruit cake this year and it was success, even though I did not follow a recipe. Just eye balled everything and had a lot of bickering with my mother. A lot of people said they like it and the 5 cakes we did is almost gone. That I would say is a success. One of those people who liked it was my mom’s partner and now he wants me to bake a cake just for him. Even offered to buy the ingredients. The only problem is that I do not know how to do one cake because I wing it.

This month was my sister’s birthday, so I wished her happy birthday. I never actually asked her, but her mom is very active on social media and so I found out there. She turned 16. Today she actually shared some photos that she had where I was in them which I found surprising. I also wished her Merry Christmas because why not. And I found out that her grandfather died on Christmas day (of all days!!). That was heartbreaking to hear because death is hard and when you’re close to someone, it feels like shit.

Its interesting that although I do not like movies, I watched way more movies than tv shows this month. Since I like to watch movies while drawing, I got through a ton, plus my mom and I watched a few Christmas movies together. I continued with Below Deck because its a guilty pleasure, but other than that, I was close to finishing season 2 of Virgin River. I only have like 20 minutes left. its such a good show that I don’t want it to finish. I was excited for Tiny Pretty Things, got through one episode and I was disappointed. I started watching Bridgerton and it was good. And with my being the type of person who never seems to finish things, I only got through 2 episodes. I will continue though.

Reading wise, I finished 3 books and I am halfway done with another. This has been the lowest I have read in quite a while, and I think its because I have been watching a lot of movies and playing video games. This month I finished:

• Roommaid by Sariah Wilson
• Tiny Pretty Things by Sona Charaipotra
• Shiny Broken Pieces by Sona Charaipotra

Maybe I might finish the book I am currently reading, but I highly doubt it unless some miracle happens. And if I don’t, thats okay because I was able to finish 51 books this year and I am proud of that.

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In case you want to catch up, this is what I posted throughout the month:

• Let’s Chat [1 DEC 2020]
• Christmas Puppy | December Bullet Journal Spread
• Let’s Chat: I don’t have the energy.
• Let’s Chat: Sometimes Words Kind of Hurt
• The Heroes we did not know we Needed
• Acts of Kindness
• Holiday Movies Worth Watching
• Trying to make a (Caribbean) fruit cake in Canada

I think thats all that went on this month. Hopefully I did not miss anything, most likely I did. I plan to do a 2020 recap because I think it will be interesting. And hopefully it will be up before the clock strikes midnight marking a new year.

Am I the only one who is happy that this year is almost over and we are kind of having a fresh start?