So I am sitting by my phone waiting for my doctors office to call me about renewing my prescriptions of acne and anxiety medication. And its been 4 hours. The point of this story is to not be an idiot like me, calling last minute when you are almost out of medication and your insurance is going to expire in a few hours.
Other than that, August has been a very interesting month.
It started out with me finding my half-sister on Facebook and meeting her and her mom for the first time in about 14/15 years a week ago. Yeah it was just as crazy as it sounds. That does happen in real life, not only in movies.
Its been a few weeks, and I still have not fully processed it. Some people might see it as a good thing, while others might not. But honestly I don’t know how I feel. I don’t want to force a relationship with her if she’s currently happy with her life. But, I am also the closest thing she has to her father’s side. Our father is out of the picture and not reliable, and she does not have a relationship with our grandmother like I do. And I feel lost because what if she wants that connection. I don’t know, theres a lot of thoughts going on in my head.
So I started my official job search this month and its mostly been sending applications and never hearing a word back. There have 2 interviews and few rejections but its mostly been ghosting. If only hr cared how much time I spent on each application. My cover letters are unique you know and I do my research. I guess it is what it is. And because I spend so much time on each application, I only do 2/3 a day because it is mentally draining.
Though I need to admit that I randomly emailed a company that I was really interested to work at, asking if there were any opportunities and they got back to me even if it took 3 weeks. And now I am in the second round of interviews. If I did not do that, would not get that chance. Wish me luck, but also never be afraid of rejection.
This month, I was set on starting a reading journal. So I watched a bunch of youtube videos, ended up buying a whole bunch of supplies and joined a reading journal facebook group. While doing all of that I realized that I enjoyed drawing, even though I am not good at it. And it has helped a lot with my mental health. I will just lay on my bed listening to a podcast and not think. Also I get to draw out my feelings, and each picture tells a story.
As a birthday gift to myself, I got airpods, and I now get the hype. I have been missing out for a while. They were pricy, but I do not regret the decision because I love them. When I draw, I use them and its awesome. Its much better than having a pair of headphones for your laptop and one for your phone. Just be careful because I almost lost one in the middle of the road of all places a few days after getting it. Lets just say I was ripping off my mask and came along with it.
This month I read 7 books. I know thats a lot and I am proud. I actually started the month off really strong, reading 5 books in 2 weeks, but then I kind of became slumpy. But I am still happy because I still read a lot compared to last year when I read 1 book. They were:
- Wall Street Titan: The Complete Duet by Anna Zaires
- Bound by Temptation by Cora Reilly
- Luca Vitiello by Cora Reilly
- Deviant King by Rina Kent
- The Kingmaker by Kennedy Ryan
- Clap When You Land by Elizabeth Acevedo
Now, since I have been reading so much lately, I haven’t been watching too much tv. I am currently watching the last season of How to Get Away with Murder. And woah, lots of shit is going down. I still keep up with Below Deck Med because who doesn’t love some trash tv. And I tried to get into Teenage Bounty Hunters because people said its good. But I don’t see it and I am 5 episodes in. And I had issues with the opening scenes. Forcing your boyfriend to have sex with the justification it is god’s doing since you are in love. I am not super religious but do not find it okay to use the bible to justify rape.
Anyway, that is all I have to say. I think. If you have watched those tv shows, are applying to jobs, have a half sibling or airpods, comment.
In case you want to catch up, this is what I posted throughout the month:
- Do You Like Getting Your Nails Done?
- So I Found My Long Lost Half-Sister
- Panic Attacks Suck!!!
- Unless you have curly hair, you don’t understand
- messing with my anxiety
- There’s no point arguing with morons
- Is it possible to hate your family?
- Oopsie. I bought Another Planner
- I miss my dog!!!
- Getting Rejected vs Getting Ghosted by Companies
- Caribbean Food I Love and Miss
- I Met My Half-Sister Today