On My Mind Right Now

One of the things I love about my blog is that it gets my mind off whatever’s troubling me at the moment. And today’s one of those nights where a lot’s going on.

First off, I watched Descendants 3 last week and ever since, the songs are stuck in my head. I can’t get it out. And it doesn’t help that I love listening to it over and over again. One Kiss, Knight Falls and Do What You Gotta Do. Not its fault its a good movie.

Today [its still Wednesday in my head], my grandmother told me something that’s stuck on my mind. So where I’m originally from, you go to Primary school from grade k to grade 6 and then take an exam to determine which secondary school you spend the next 5 years at. The more prestigious the school is, the higher the mark required to enter. Well, 2 weeks ago my 12 year old cousin wrote that exam, and he got the results back on Monday. Unfortunately, he did not get the mark that he needed to go to the school that he wanted to and he’s bummed about that.

You can go ahead to think that he did not try his best and hard enough if he wanted to go to X- school. Every student who did not get into the school they wanted obviously feels that way.

But I am so proud of him. He tried his best. He wrote his exam during a fucking pandemic. And I just want to tell him that. I wish I could have been there, but I am not.

I want to tell him that, it does no good to compare yourself to others (not even me). That you tried your best. To not give up. That you no matter what school you end up going to, you will do well and you will get the same education as the one that you did not go to.

I wanted to see him graduate, and not doing so actually hurts. He’s the closest thing that I have to a brother. I haven’t seen him since before Christmas all because there was a problem between his mom and my uncle (his father).

I decided to give $200 CAD to him/his father to help with his school expenses. No one asked me to. I think they were more surprised that I even offered to do so in the first place. But I know how pricey it gets, and I know how privileged I was to not have to worry about these expenses.