June 2020 memories

Another month has come and gone. Things are getting back to normal, or the “new normal”, but I’m still sad that I can’t travel. Yes, I will continue complaining about that because I’m usually with my doggie around this time and I am still sad that my travel plans are in limbo/cancelled.

June was an interesting one and I have no idea how long this post is going to be. Apologizing in advance.

One of the biggest things is that I graduated this month. But it does not feel that way. Obviously we had no ceremony, I do not have my diploma and I don’t have any photos. My school sent out graduation boxes and I have not received mine yet and have not gotten the final proofs yet. And fun fact, it was very expensive. It cost me $700. I did want to talk about whats next, but I didn’t have anything sentimental and I’m lazy. Hopefully soon.

I have started to look for and apply to jobs slowly. I usually send in 2-3 applications every few days. Right now I am just not in a rush, so I am taking my time. And I am trying to believe that everything happens for a reason and that God is looking out for me. I try to tailor every application to every job posting, and it takes a while to do so. I don’t remember where I heard this, but someone once said that searching for a job is a full time job, and they are not wrong.

So last month, my mom and I decided to send a barrel for my family in the Caribbean. And I just want to say this is the first and last time I am doing that. Never again unless its for myself.

You might be wondering what I a barrel is and why it was such a terrible idea, so I’ll explain. Basically, someone from a larger more developed country, ships a huge drum filled with things to their family in another country. So my mom and I, sent 2 barrels to the Caribbean for my family.

When I was younger, she would send me stuff [clothes, food, books]. It felt like Christmas. And since I have become an adult, I am doing the same thing for my family. Not only was there a lot of shopping, it was expensive. Normally, you would plan this in advance and buy things slowly. But no no no, we did it all in 3 weeks. The amount of things I had being delivered and returns I had to make were ridiculous. Also had to deal with my fear of speaking over the phone to call Old Navy to deal with something. Like I said, first and last time. I hate shopping and I was broke in the end.

Can I really be broke if I bought way to many ebooks? In defence they were on sale. Though I am not sure that makes it better or worse. Maybe I should do an ebook haul. But I did read 4 books this month:

• Beach Read by Emily Henry
• With the Fire on High by Elizabeth Acevedo
• The Happily Every After by Abby Jimenez
• Dear Ava by Ilsa Madden-Mills

And I am over 80% done with Abruption by Riley Mackenzie. See I am reading the books that I buy. Its just really hard to not buy it at $1.99.

I never talked about this, but last month, I started to work on a paper that I did last year for a class and I really wanted to submit it for a writing prize at my school. Its the one that I did the presentation for back in March. But I had to give up because my professor was too busy to help me. I am not blaming her because she has a life and I am no longer a student, but I am sad that I missed that opportunity. I just didn’t see the point in trying to build an empirical model and not understand what I was doing. And that was happening during the time that I was dealing with the barrel and my uncle’s death.

This month marked a year since he died and a year since his burial. Today also marks 2 years since my aunt died. I don’t really talk about this but a part of me kind of holds a grudge against my grandparents for not burying my aunt and uncle is a tombstone. Money was tight and they couldn’t afford it, so they buried them in the ground because it was cheaper. It makes me sad knowing that I can’t visit if I wanted to. June is not the easiest month for me.

On a happier note, I was nominated for my first ever blog award by the Blondey on a Mission. She an amazing person with an amazing blog so I suggest you check it out. I haven’t done the post yet (oopsie) but I will soon.

Ohhh I discovered Krispy Kreme donuts. They are so good. Tried them a few weeks ago, and haven’t stopped talking about them ever since, so I went back today because my mom bribed me. I know I am the definition of health (just kidding). Just look at this beauty though. I’ve already had two and one sitting my room.

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In case you want to catch up, this is what I posted throughout the month:

• Just HEARING THOSE WORDS: PART 2
• I’m Anxious Over Taking Photos and I Hate Myself
• My Struggle between Straight Hair and curly Hair
• Wholesome Conversation with a Stranger
• Tired of Spending Money – A Rant
• Moving to Canada: Now and Then

If you even bothered reading this entire thing, question, do you like donuts and if yes, is there a favourite type?