One of the things I try to do with my blog is being honest with myself and other people about what is going on because it is relatable. And this is why I am making this post, even though it is the MOST difficult thing for me to do right now.
It is hard to share my thoughts is because I have told people about this blog, and I am not sure whether or not I want them knowing whats going on. But you know what, its okay, because I don’t give a fuck about what people think.
I went on a date with someone on Friday. Yes, with all that is going on in the world right now, I went on a date. And I enjoyed it and I have shared this blog with him
But that is not the problem.
Not very often I click with people. There’s a reason why I don’t go on second dates. Well its more that I get blocked or ghosted but thats not the point.
I enjoyed those few hours that we spent together.
I like waking up to the “good morning” texts that he sends me.
I like our banter
And I want to see him again.
And I might like him.
But I don’t know if he feels the same way or wants to see me again.
Even though he said he enjoyed seeing me, what if he’s lying and said that to say that to me? I know what its like to be lied to and ghosted from someone. I just don’t want to get hurt.
There are so many articles online about how to tell someone you don’t want a second date, but how do you tell someone that you WANT a second date?
I don’t mind continue speaking to him, but I don’t want to seem like I am not interested when I am or seeming like I want attention when I am not.
I don’t know. I wish I knew. I’m usually a confident person, but when it comes to dating, I have no clue what to do.