My last month of university starts from today, 9th March 2020.
I still have exams in April, but last month of university in terms of classes to go back. Only 4 weeks of class left before I am done.
And for me thats a big thing because for the first time in my life, when I am done with that this last month of school, I have nothing to go back to. Ever since I was little, I have been going to school. Preschool, primary, secondary, alevel, university. I have never taken a break and have been a student for 20 years. I don’t know what my life is without school. And this is scary for me to think about.
It was definitely an adjustment going from a Caribbean education system to Canadian university. I grew up wearing uniforms, the school was close by, I lived with my family, no cold weather to deal with and there was an Easter vacation and a 9am-3pm schedule.
It feels like I started university yesterday. Being lost on campus because everything felt new. Only buying pizza for lunch because I was scared of getting real food and seeming like an idiot. Getting used to the long breaks in classes or just leaving the room whenever you want. There being so many people. Struggling for the first time in my classes and getting shitty grades. Commuting to and from school. Not knowing anyone and having a hard time making friends. Having late night classes.
I’m still finding it hard to believe that right now, I am in my 4th year with only one month left of classes. It still feels like the 2019/2020 school year just started. Or maybe I’m just weird
I just need to point out that even though I am graduating and have no post grad plans for right now, it doesn’t mean I will stop being a student or stop learning. There are so many ways to continue your education and honestly, learning is an ongoing process. It never stops.
I decided a few months ago, instead of doing my masters I would take a gap year. Like I said, I don’t know what my life is without going to school and so I wanted to take a year off to experience that. I plan on only taking a year off and going back to school for sure. But I needed some time to fix my mental health and save some money. Possibly get a dog??? I want to figure out what exactly I want to do masters in because at the beginning of the school year, I did not want to be there. I did not want to go back because I was so burnt out. I plan on talking about this gap year decision more in an upcoming blog post for sure, but if you’re interested you can read this one about not wanting to go back to school. It explains a lot.
So thats all. Its 12:30am. I still have the last four weeks to get through. Hope for the best.