In my last post, I mentioned going on a date that has set the bar for everyone else to come. And I also mentioned that I was not sure if there was going to be another date with him. Well I can officially say that there isn’t going to be one.
He officially ended things with me today.
And I’m okay with that.
See, I saw him just before I left Canada for a whole month. No it wasn’t that bad that I had to book a one month vacation out of the country. My plans were already made months before even speaking to him. It was just the timing. And at the end of that night he wanted us to figure out in the time that we were apart, if this would be something that we would both want.
A few days ago he messaged me asking what I wanted from this. Something long term and serious or short and casual. Thing is, since I have never been in a relationship before [shocker right!!??] this was an overwhelming situation for me, so I was honest with him and said that I wasn’t sure.
Today he messaged to tell me that he doesn’t see things going anywhere between us because we have nothing in common. He thought it was best to be upfront about it than ignore or ghost me, ultimately hurting me. And he said goodbye.
After reading his message I was okay with it. I wasn’t upset with him or sad because I wasn’t sure how I felt to begin with, other than being overwhelmed and confused. Then thought that what he did was really nice because I’m used to being ignored after a date. And then I started to question whether or not I was dateable. But then I realized that sometimes these things happen and I cannot be the only one. This is what comes with dating.
I’m sad that things did not work out because I was looking forward to seeing him when I got back to Canada, and I still think that it was an amazing date. However, I am a firm believer in everything happening for a reason, so I just have to wait for what the universe has in store.
I am only 22. I have my whole life to look forward to and the rest of my ’20s to be selfish. So I am okay with him ending things. If and when I get into a relationship, I need to be given the world because I am way to special to get anything less.