11th August 2019

Today’s been a rough one for me. I barely slept last night and I had no coffee today, which is not a fun combination. And even when I tried to take a nap, that didn’t work, because naps seem to hate me. So I got to spend it yawning over and over and over again.

I couldn’t sleep because it was one of those nights where my anxiety made it difficult to. I had a lot on my mind, mostly about leaving St. Lucia. So poor me, didn’t get to sleep till about 3:30 am and had to wake up a few hours later to go out with the grandmother.

I’ve mentioned before how I only have two more weeks left here. Leaving this time just feels different. It feels like I am not coming back, which very well might be. After graduating university, there is no four month break anymore and neither am I coming for Winter break. After university, I have no intention of living in St. Lucia right away since I want to settle in Canada.

So it means, I’m leaving here for good this time. And that’s really scary to think about since this is where I was born and raised. Life is so precious, and in the blink of an eye, you can easily lose a loved one.